Feeling Seen

This kid had no idea what life, what God had in store for him. He’s still living in awe of what God has for the rest of his life.

They say perception is reality to the perceiver.

Do we all see things the same way?

Do we see one another, ourselves or God the same way?

Experience has taught me that emotions aren't the best lenses.

As a kid, I remember the course on drunk driving where they used the example of putting vaseline on your glasses as they attempted to explain how intoxication distorts perception.

Sometimes intense emotions distort our perception. They also compromise our judgment.

In times of grief and loss it feels like you just can't see everything clearly.

No matter how deep your denial, or how you rationalize and justify what you're doing to cope, there will be a time when it all comes crashing in on you.

In that moment, when you can no longer deny your pain, your anger, or your grief, the fraud of whatever story you've told yourself and others about being okay becomes obvious.

So, that's when I surrender and start to pray.

When I pray, I perceive. When I contemplate, I am content. When I listen, I know I am loved. I see and hear what God is trying to tell me.

He's telling me that I am loved, I am free, and that I have permission to embrace the life he desires me to live.

God wants us to perceive him so we can persevere in him.

You may not always understand your choices, or even what motivates your behavior, but God does. He chooses to love you anyway!

My life is a work in progress, not perfection, but I am perfectly in him and that is what matters most to me.

Much Love,

Jeremy E.