“In the same way a Christian is not a man who never goes wrong, but a man is enabled to repent and pick himself up and begin over again after each stumble--because the Christ-life is inside him, repairing him all the time, enabling him to repeat (in some degree) the kind of voluntary death which Christ Himself carried out." - C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity
The Road Ahead
Some days I feel very overwhelmed by life. Some days I feel like I am walking uphill, and other days it feels like I'm walking downhill. The above mentioned quote by C.S. Lewis reminds me to show myself a little grace. So that is what I am going to write about in this blog post.
Life has taken my family in some interesting directions over the last 4 years. We've been in and out of the hospital, traveling back and forth to the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN. We've endured some really difficult circumstances as a family. I don't know where we'd be if we hadn't put our trust in God.
The next step in our family journey, is a major move to Arizona after living in Minnesota since 2002. You read that right. I've turned in my notice at a job I love (many of those years spent as a Chaplain). I've applied for a few positions in Arizona, and I've even got an additional interview scheduled for the first part of May. My daughter Maddie and I will be flying down to Arizona for that interview on May 2nd. Relocating to Arizona has been a desire of Cally's for a long time, it was even supported by her medical team at the Mayo Clinic. Fortunately, we will be able to transfer all of her healthcare to the Mayo Clinic in Scottsdale, AZ. For those of you who don't know, Cally's (my wife) health and quality of life are our top priority.
We will be leaving the life we have created in Minnesota, to make a fresh start in a new state, with a new address, and a new job. For a while now, we've been sensing that the grace for us to be in MN has lifted. We know it is time for a change. So that is what we're doing.
Among the top 3 stressors any family can experience, moving is at the top of the list. M stress comes from uncertainty. I question the wisdom of my own decision making. Am I taking too big of a risk in moving? Am I making this decision out of fear or faith? Even though I question myself at times, God is gracious in calming my fears.
We're starting fresh. We will get a new apartment. I will be working in a new job. My wife will be adjusting to a new environment. My two daughters will have to adapt their lives to accommodate all these changes. It is tempting at times to get sucked back into fear. I can not afford to surrender my serenity.
When it's all said and done, Cally's health and well being are more important than the temporary discomfort of moving. It pains me to leave the life we have enjoyed in Minnesota, but it thrills me to know that we have an opportunity for greater health and happiness in Arizona.
I will continue to share updates on our move, and whatever else is on my mind.
Pastor Jeremy E.