“Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens.” J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring
As I ponder the move ahead of us, I can not help but to think about the journey of two of the most esteemed characters and members of the Fellowship of the Ring, a book written by my favorite fantasy fiction author J. R. R. Tolkien. I like metaphors and analogous representations of life, which is why the Lord of the Rings resonates so deeply within me.
In case you aren't aware of this epic story, Frodo and Sam, two of the main characters, took upon themselves the daunting task of ridding the world of evil by delivering the Ring of Power to Mount Doom in the Black Land of Mordor. Destroying the ring where it was forged would likewise rid the world of the evil of Sauron, the Lord of Mordor. Our family journey is much less dramatic than that of Frodo and Sam, but it is no less wrought with purpose and peril. I think our purpose arises when our peril increases in this life. That is my theory.
Life really is a journey, and in many ways we are stepping out into the unknown. Without sounding to philosophical, we have an epistemic certainty about our move, that one might be inclined to call faith. Though we can not predict all that the future holds, we can trust the One who holds our future firmly in his grasp. God never promised us that the journey would be easy, but he did say that he will "never leave us, nor forsake us."
What is unknown to us, is known to God. The 3 omni-attributes of God, omniscience , omnipotence, omnipresence highlight this fact. Nothing takes God by surprise, which gives me a psychological reprieve from the stress of uncertainty and the accompanying anxiety. As my own history demonstrates, the more powerless I feel in a situation, the more the power and control behaviors show up in my life. That is a recipe for misery. My family deserves better from me.
I feel good about the changes and transition coming into my life, but I wouldn't be telling the truth if I didn't admit that I feel a lot of fear at times. I know everything will be alright, my job is to let go and let God. My job is to surrender and accept that God is in control, not me. My fear only set me back, not God. Therefore, I might as well live by faith. Like Frodo and Sam, I must believe and press on, no matter what obstacles are thrown in my way. Even when the road ahead looks dark, I refuse to be counted among the faithless. I may wonder while I wander, but I will not lose hope, nor will I allow doubt to corrupt my faith. After all, its easy to trust God when everything is going your way. What happens to your faith when it isn't?
“Not all those who wander are lost.” J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring